~6th Months Anniversary~

23/10/2011, 1724, Cloudy, Sunday

     Time passing by really fast, just like close your eyes for 1 sec and it's already 6th months, me and her. Many of my friends saying that our love is like already long long time being together, but we are actually stepped in 6th months anniversary, ONLY. Nevertheless, I admit that our love is like 2-3 years already. Within these 6 months, a lot of thing happening and we gone through a lot of things. I guess you (Alice) know what am I talking about right my dear?

     I had passed my narrowness/darkness and no more suspicious on her, due to my past experiences. There is some barriers between me and her, but we have promised to each other that we will walk through it. Thanks to you and all of my friends who supporting me and her. We appreciated that.

     Once again, happy 6th months anniversary! =)

人与人之间

1/10/2011, 1750, Rainy, Saturday

    总觉得人与人之间的互动，在于信任和了解。很多时候当我宁听朋友说起他们的故事的时候，不是背叛的就是误会了对方。我们活在这是上，就是要经得起考验和验证来真爱情和纯友情。俗语说“这世上没有说没有你就活不下去”，但我们在爱情方面才会听到这一句，哈哈。但是，朋友是互相来互持着对方，正所谓“在家靠父母，出外靠朋友”。

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    真爱情，不是靠甜言蜜语和表面上的“我爱你”这三个字就是得到了真爱情。以前不懂事的我，觉得对爱的人说了“我爱你”就是真爱情了，很好笑的说。对于我的领悟，很多时候是要用行动来说明一切，爱是需要俩者互配的支持。而且，单方面的爱情是永远不长久和自己得到最痛的伤害。很多人都听过“长痛不如短痛”，但有多少的人会去行动？我看见很多朋友活在单方面的爱情里面，有些人是因为责任而持续的单方面爱情；也有些人因为不想伤害对方而选择了单方面的爱情或等待对方说分手，这样的做法会危害自己的思想和心灵而自己本身知道爱情已不在。

    “没有你就活不下去”。我也曾经这么认为这句话是很正确，甚至我还挂在嘴唇边说道。直到自己谈了几次恋爱后，才发现这句话是。。。很废下下的，哈！活在这世上，有整千万的人口；就算没有了他／她，你仍然是活着而且你还找到你最爱的人。真爱情，不需要多言多语而单凭行动就证明了爱情。真爱情，它都一直活在你／我／她的身边。当你觉得他／她的一切你都接受时，或许真爱情你已找到了。

    哪里去找纯友情啦？？小学同学？中学同学？ 学院或大学同学？还是同事? 错错错，都错了。纯友情是会出现当你很低落的时候，她/他会上前问候你或慰问你。他/她没时常联络你但他/她注意你的行踪和状态，如果你的身边有这样的朋友，恭喜你！她/他会是你所要找的纯友情朋友。她/他会不管你喜欢听或不喜欢听，不要的事情就要向你劝告，因为他们不想你被伤害。

    我也听取了朋友的故事后，我觉得他的遭遇蛮悲哀（我没有说你的名字=P)。在同一间屋子里，原本是五位好朋友住在一起，而且他喜欢的女子也住在一起。很不幸的是，他的四位好朋友包括那位女子，在他的面前走出门而且也没问起要不要一块去玩乐。我听了，很心疼也替我的朋友不开心。当有问题的时候，就向我的朋友求救但为了自己的利益，却没有向他问候是否要一块去。我的朋友也很想责怪他们，但内心很不愿意这么做，因为他不想失去朋友。我听到这了，觉得我的朋友很有纯友情。我就和他说，搬出去吧既然你住的不开心了。他说“我搬出去了，他们怎么办？他们。。。”我的老朋友啊，在为着四位顾着利益的人着想，而让自己受伤害。这种纯友情的朋友，去哪里找？但我找到了他，而珍惜他。

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真爱情和纯友情，是在于一线之差。

Love & Friendship 

看你怎么去看待这两码事和去对待。

Breakthrough to Eliminate the Fear

30/8/2011, 2330, Cloudy, Tuesday

Some people like DAY time and some people like NIGHT time. For me, I like night time because at this period of time no one will disturb you, you can enjoy thinking without any interruption. Nevertheless, you might facing some kind of thing that caused you - FEAR. Such as, lonely, negative minded, sorrow, narrow thinking, losing faith and many more. If you choosing night time, please ready up yourself and against the FEARS.

Somehow, the "element" that really FEARED me is [Betray]. Because of past experiences, I'd get Betrayed by people, the feeling is really hurt enough to make you suffering for few months. I used to be a normal guy, studying in college, working in KL and searching for life partner; like everyone else does it too. I've graduated secondary school at 2003 and graduated Diploma at 2006, then working in KL since 2003 until present. But I have gained a lot of life experiences, including relationship and belief. I learned to be tolerance, temper control, understanding, caring and etc, during in a relationship. I got no female friends for the past 5 years and I will get scolded if I near to any girls. I have slightly of Depression during that 5 years, but I've learned to control my temper and understanding. I should thanks to her for this matter and I can't withstand anymore, so ended we broke up.

Past recently relationship, giving me a big impact and tough time. Seems like I am the replacement for her to passing the time, and I have not aware of this. Everytimes I thought I'm smart enough to analysis or evaluate people, but I was totally wrong this time. I just can't imagine, I'm 10th for her and during relationship she told me that she haven't break up with her bf, just in cooling period. I was like - WTF? I don't like to be third party and I questioned back, "Am I your third party? She said nope." But how come behind of me, still doing something that shouldn't happens in a relationship, such as BETRAY? You told me that you're tired and want to get early sleep, but I found out that you were chatting with your ex or going meet other guys. 2 months and I gained wisely, I let it go and I "HAVE TO". Because of this, caused a big FEAR for me, that is BETRAY. We are not the same world therefore we are not supposed together from the beginning. I'm realistic and you are materialistic, thanks to you and I found my love 1, someone that truly love me.

First of all, I feel sorry to my love. Because of the past relationship, caused a big FEAR for me and my love can't get whatever that she want. But I have gifted her the most precious thing, HEART. During these 5 days, you are not beside me and I can't sleep well. I know that I caused you a lot of troubles and I did a mistake, I suspect you that doing the same thing like my ex. But I was wrong, you are the first one who can unlock my heart and understand what am I thinking. Thank you that giving me advises and Assurance Heart to me, I feel shocked when you doing this to me but I feel warmth. I know I shouldn't suspect anymore and I should have faithfulness into you, I seeking apologize from you and I will change it for sure. I still remember what you had told me, "Dear, please remember that I had chosen you and I won't leave you no matter how. I already decided to follow you and I won't regret, please do trust me and have fully faith into me. I have make a big decision which is I will get a tattoo and it will be your name, STANLEY". I feel touched that you will get a tattoo of my name and I think I shouldn't think negatively anymore, because I get the most precious love from you!

My Dearest Alice Mah, 

From now onward, I will fully trust you as I believed you won't do anything that betray me and I will believed whatever you said it to me. I won't suspect and I won't doubt you anymore, please forgive as I know that I quite annoying too (my cares is too much). Please accept my cares and don't feel it annoyed because I really love you, that's why I cared.

 All I need to do now is 

Breakthrough to Eliminate the Fear.

My Beloved - Alice Mah

传说中的，她

她 - 一直很调皮的作弄我
她 - 一直很担心我的心情
她 - 一直在我的需要人安慰的时候，总是在逗我笑
她 - 一直陪伴在我左右
她 - 一直在让我吃闷醋（哈哈！）
她 - 一直会让我想家的感觉
她 - 一直让我更要努力的赚钱，好好疼她
她 - 一直会让我很闷骚，当我听到三字经的时候（哈哈！）
她 - 一直让我想呵护她的感觉，因为她很小胆
她 - 一直想给人好劝告，但自己的事却管理不好
她 - 一直在我身边唱歌，像是我的随身听器
她 - 一直很呵护我
她 - 一直和我在为未来打算，因为这样她不再是个乱买东西的好女孩了，她更会省钱了
她 - 一直很黏着我，但却会有给我点空间，我觉得很棒


谢谢你 - 一直听我发牢骚
谢谢你 - 一直陪我渡过了心情低落的时候
谢谢你 - 一直让我觉得现在的我们俩，比起以前更好/更温暖/更爱大家了
谢谢你 - 一直很为我着想，为我省钱
谢谢你 - 一直在陪我熬苦
谢谢你 - 一直让我觉得被你疼了，又陪你的全家人疼我/爱我
谢谢你 - 一直让我很【头痛】，很调皮的你让我又爱又气～！



#我想说的是
-我不是最完美的，但我会为你而尝试
-我不是最烂漫的，但我会为你而烂漫
-我不是最有钱的，但我不会让你饿坏（我答应你）
-我不是最帅气的，但我不会因为这样而整容（哈哈）
-我不是最最瘦的，但我要为你减肥（因为健康啦～～哈哈）#

我的世界因为你而精彩！
谢谢你！亲爱的Alice Mah

An unforgettable memories & surprises for my beloved Mother on 31/7/2011

On Friday 29/7/2011, I'm so happy that can going back to my beloved hometown at Taiping with my lovely girlfriend and also fetch along Stanley Yoon and Derek Lee. The motive that I'm going back is because I want to surprised my mother, she have been taking care of me 25 years yet I haven't really celebrate her birthday with cake. Well, sometimes I thought about my mom staying with my father in Taiping, and my mom already 63 years old (if not mistaken la.. =p), really quite old leh.. So I decided back to taiping to celebrate with her and wanted to give her an unforgettable memories! I love you mom!

On Friday night we reached Taiping about 12:30am, we depart at 930pm but highway really jammed! Damn! But nevermind, think of my mom, the sweet & Happy face when see me, I'm ok liaO! I stayed 1 night at my gf's house first due to want to give surprise to my mom. So on Saturday, me and ALICE bring "Ah Nien" (Grandmother of Alice) for breakfast. I'm so happy that Ah Nien can so love me and sayang me, that's why I wanted to love her as well! It's really good that if your grandmother/grandfather loves you guys because it will double blessing for you! :)

I have met Chuah Bee Bee, my secondary schoolmate, an old buddy!! We meet up at Station One Taiping Sentral, we talked a lot and chat something about our future. I realized that at this age (25 years old), we already started to discuss about marriage and future planning. Bee Bee really expected something romantic proposal done by her bf.. what about me? LOL~~~ you guys should wait for my proposal.. definitely will make Alice cry again... =D 

Well, it's about time to SURPRISE my mother!!!! I already bought a cake to my mom and it's really delicious!!! HAha!! I took the cake that already kept in alice's house refrigerator, and we going back to my house at 11:50pm. Then I called to my mom, chit chat and bla bla bla..then I suddenly mentioned "Ma, you make a wish la.. like you want to eat what ar.. cake ar.. and etc.. I'm your good son, surely I will make it happen and right in front of you!" Then my mother said "yes ar...? then I want cake lar.. I already take care of you 25 years liao.. but you never celebrate with me even once with cake.." I was stunned and tears keep rolling in my eyes.... So I pretend that I didn't cry and nothing and I said "yes ar...? then you close the phone and wait for my cake ya...OK?" 

At sharp 12:00am 31/7/2011, I sneaking into my house quietly and my gf is waiting at outside with cake. Then when I open door, my father was surprised and I ask my father to keep it silent as I want to give my mother birthday. Then I opened my mother's room, and I shout "Happy birthday to my MOM!!!!!!" (Then I saw checking the phone, because she thought I will send the cake through MMS and she will happy when received my cake mms, I cried..) My mom was really happy when seeing me and with Alice, because my mom first time celebrating birthday with cake, and of course I'm beside her and Alice too.. Then I sing a happy birthday song to my mom and Alice taking pictures for me, mom and dad! Thank you dear!

I can see my mom really happy and the smile is so sweet! She keep looking picture in my phone, she wants the pictures so much, so I will print it out and frame it to my mother! Then the next day, I went to Giant Supermarket buy Spaghetti materials and cook a meal to my mom! She so happy that finally can taste my cook that she have been waiting for so long..

**In conclusion for this 3 days 2 night trip at taiping, I learned to care more to my family and alice's family. Nothing more important than FAMILY's love. I really hope I have more time to visit my parent, Ah Nien and Alice's family. I want to see them happy forever**

*Love your family as you can, don't wait until lost it then realized how important it is*

My last day in P1 Project - 28/7/2011

I joined datacom since Nov 2009 and P1 was my first project. At first I don't really know that I will work in P1 as I don't really like the products. I still remembered that I'm totally a newbie in this project but thanks goodness I was guided by senior, Tee Chin Hong, Vince Lai and Desmond Chin. Therefore, we are like closest friends and helping in each other.

I tell you what, not every can withstand with P1 Customers, the customers so sarcastic and terrible!!! When I start on floor of the first week, customer requested for supervisor calls. I was like, totally freaked out! Haha.. Some more the customer is foreigner and my English totally can't compete with this customer, because my English is suck! 

Soon or later, all my friends are resigning and seeing their resignation email was sent out in the whole floor. Sometimes I do wondering myself, how much longer I can work under extremely pressure in P1? I got no idea and I do wondering when is my turn to sent out Farewell Email in the floor. There is a lot of nice friends in the office (I'm sure you know who I meant for =p), they are totally awesome! But still got some asshole fella making a lot of shit to among us, I always mad because of it. I know some of my friends knows what am I talking about and who refer to. LOL

I was promoted to SWAT at July 2010, SWAT Captain on 2011, and resigned end of the July 2011. There was a chance to promote Team Leader (A position that I always dream for), I took the assessment and waiting the final assessment, but unfortunately the position was OFFERED by the higher management. I was totally upset and so down when I heard of the news! I was so desperate searching for a nice position/job, and I guess I was luckily! That is so coincidence, my friend (dian wen) resigned from HPRPS, and there is an urgent opening to replace her position. I seek help from Cynthia due to I would like to take part of that position, and Cynthia helped me out and talked to HPRPS manager, Bryan Yeo. I am so luckily that Bryan took me in his department and I totally free from hell!! :P

On April 2011, there is an increment for me and when I was internal transferred to HPRPS, there also an increment for me too. I am so happy where I am now and I got friends in HPPRS too, such as closer friend Josephine Tan. I have a dream and I was walked through together with my lovely GF Alice Mah. Within this 3 years we need to achieved a house and a car (if possible). I'm getting old and I need to start planning for this coming few years. If follow accordingly to the plan, we shall able to achieved what we want in this coming 3 years.

I know my new department is stressful and difficult, but I promised to myself I will overcome the fear and I will follow step by step to achieve my goals. I really need to thanks Praveen, Cynthia, Anslem, Syah, David Mak, Mun Zheng, Jason Loh, Nieukey, Stephen, Josephine Tan and many more, thanks for the advices and I know this is the path I chosen and I shall walk through it. I want to be a better man and a person who really cares about friends, YES is you and I meant it for you, if you read my blog. :)

I'm sad because I left P1 project and miss my friends, I'm happy because 29/7/2011 going back hometown with gf, Stanley Yoon and Derek Lee. The purpose we going back because I want to celebrate birthday to my lovely mom on 31st of July 2011. I wanted to give her a sudden surprised and with the cake!!! :D Another happy thing I'm happy because a new will starts on 1st of August 2011, well I can't say too much now because I don't know how's the environment and my feelings yet. 

So, just stayed tune with my blogs and I will bring more stories to you all~

kind regards,
Stanley Chai

Alice Mah cried because of me....

I am so so happy that the birthday present I gave to my girlfriend Alice Mah, it is an unforgettable bittersweet memories at 23th July 2011

1) Handmade dishes - 3 dishes & 1 soup
2) Malacca Layer cakes - Nadeje layer cake (you cried when you saw the surprises that made from me)
3) Funny video recorded from me and acting by me too~
4) A birthday celebration with relatives but Alice didn't know about it.

My dear Alice,

I have did my best and gave you a special sweet memories on your birthday. I did promised to myself that I wanted to see you really happy being together with me. Do you know something? You are the first girlfriend that I cooked 3 dishes & 1 soup to you, I wake up at 7am and purposely went to Malacca buy your favorite layer cakes for you, first time I recorded videos and dedicate send to you!!

I really wishes you have a blessed birthday, healthy & wealthy, all the dreams comes true.

I really happy that you are so happy until you shouting "干嘛吓人啦啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~~~"

hahhaahaah... I hope you always remember the special day of TODAY~~~~~~

**thanks for reading my blogs &stay tuned for more blogs from me. ^_^

A brand new journey

Since 16th of Jan until 1st of April, it's really hard to walk through the darkness and sorrow alone. I could take the so much of impact within that period and I'm so suffering and being negatively for quite some time. I keep thinking and thinking, is it I'm not good enough and I'm not qualified? I got no idea but I have to move on, thanks to my friends who encourage me when I was down, you guys is the best! Thanks for helping me walk through darkness/sorrow path that I used to alone, I couldn't forget anyone of you and I really appreciated.

I was wrtten a note before in facebook (http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=182967061734887), what tenses that you want to choose?
= I already forgotten "PAST tense", I have found my "Present tense" and now we going to create our "FUTURE tense". Thank you for walking with me so far and being so tolerance when with me, Alice Mah. I am so grateful that I found you when I'm lost and you also missing in nowhere too, maybe that's fate that tighten us, I guess? Haha...

So funny thing is, you ask me what is "1/4已过，还有3/4的路要走，陪我一起走下去呀~不要半途​而废啊~~~" Hahaha... the 1/4 means, we already being together for 3 months la.... abo what do you think wor? hahaha....


I am happy where am I now, I have a lovely girlfriend with me, I'm going to start a new career life at 1st of August - HPRPS. Everything going smoothly and now we waiting for next year trip, Pulau Redang!!!!


God bless for you all and ME! =]